Anyway. There's something I've been meaning to tell my friends but I don't have the strength to tell everyone individually, so I'll just say it here since most of you follow me here. And now I'm sounding really dramatic, but basically: I'm dropping out of school.
I feel like I ended up in the wrong place. The school was really nice and so were the people, but something just felt... off the entire autumn. And, well, I failed the programming course and then my student loans got messed up and I'm not really sure this is what I really want, so I decided that I'd just drop out and get a job instead for the time being. And working on my writing.
I'm gonna move back home to my parents' soon, which will probably drive me crazy sooner or later but right now it's mostly just nice. It's nice to have people around and it's nice to have someone else do the cooking for you.
Honestly, this has been kind of hard on me and I've had trouble talking about it to people. I'm not used to not knowing what I want. I'm not used to not being able to do things on my first try. And I'm definitely not used to being an "adult". I've spent the entire autumn feeling annoying. I still do. I feel like I annoy everyone around me and I don't want to burden anyone with my problems so I've been even more quiet than usual lately. I'm really sorry if I haven't talked to you lately but it's literally just because I feel annoying every time I try to take contact with someone.
Well, that's basically it I guess. I've been wanting to draw lately but it hasn't gone very well. I'll update when I update.